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IV: Heute ist Samstag der 20. Juli, wir sind in Weiden in der Oberpfalz im Hotel Admira.

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Mein Name ist Michael Aue von der Medien Werkstatt und wir führen jetzt ein Interview mit Agi Geva,

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die heute in den USA lebt und die 1930 am 2. Juni in Budapest geboren wurde.

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AG: You, you didn't started anything?

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IV: I start, I started, you just have to wait to just..

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AG: No, but I can talk when, I mean, what I am telling now is not, is off record?

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IV: Now it's off.

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AG: Ok. Then my..

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IV: Ok, so let's start a little bit with the beginning, can you tell me a little bit about your childhood,

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where you have been born, about your parents, your family, how you grew up?

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AG: Ok, I was born in Budapest, but we didn't live there at the time.

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We lived at a farm, where my father was the director of a very big farm

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and ah problem started in 1936, when Jews couldn't be in key positions anymore and he was ah fired.

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It affected him more than we could have imagined.

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He got heart, heart sickness and ah he, he never recoverd actually from this shock that he had to loose his job.

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Ah until up, up to then we had quite a nice ah childhood, but at the age five, six we had to leave, was called Pogon Puszta.

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And ah we went to Miskolc where I grew up actually and where we were deported from also.

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My mother ah opened a pension ah like a small boarding house, small hotel in order to save my father worries and work

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and ah she did all the management and ah we liked to live there very much with my sister.

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We had again quite nice.

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Ah we didn't feel antisemitism, because our parents were very careful about not having us ah know a lot about it.

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At school, there was no Jewish school ah no Gymnasium, only a protestant one that's where we attended

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and that were only two Jewish girls in my class room.

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We felt it in ah social way that we were never invited to any birthday parties and ah any other parties we two Jewish girls so.

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That we, we could have managed with it {breathing}.

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IV: So and how ah can you remember ah when it started changing the situation a little bit for you?

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AG: It didn't change a little bit.

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It changed a lot in 1944 actually on the 19th of March my dad died.

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He died on, in the morning and we called our relatives in Budapest to come to the funeral and they told: "We can't, uncle Nazi arrived."

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And my mother understood that the occupation started.

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My dad, if he hadn't died that day, for natural, not natural reasons exactly,

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he had this heart trouble and he had lung trouble and he had high blood pressure, he had everything one can imagine.

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He would have died from the shock.

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So when we came back from the cemetery all the street corners were already ah full of ah SS ah guards and soldiers and officers and,

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so Miskolc was occupied on the same day when he died.

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IV: So and what did you do?

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What did your family do?

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At this day, about the next days?

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AG: {Breathing} The next days, I mean, from that day on everything changed.

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But everything changed for the worst in ah in an unimaginable way.

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Rules started to come out of, for instance the red, the yellow star.

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We couldn't go out to the street without the yellow star.

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We couldn't have a bicycle.

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I had to give my bicycle that, take it to the municipality.

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It was an idea I never, never would have imagined that should be connected.

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We {breathing} heard new words like "ghetto", "yellow star", "deportation",

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concentration camps, this became new words,

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we had to learn with my sisters, we didn't know the meaning.

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We never thought we have to know about it.

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And things started to change rapidly.

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IV: Did you have heard about the things that happened in other countries before like Poland?

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Or what happened to Jewish people or what the Germans did there?

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AG: You know, as there was not television on those days and the BBC wasn't supposed to be heard.

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Ah the Hungarian Radio did not give the exact news.

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So the little news that we had we had to imagine the rest of it,

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but somehow most of my acquaintances and friends and relatives

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everybody's told one sentence: "To Hungary it can't happen."

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It happened.

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IV: So maybe you continue what happened then?

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So you could, could go on to school further on, or?

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AG: No.

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IV: No.

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AG: We couldn't go to school anymore.

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It was the only good thing about it.

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IV: {Laughing} And ah..

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AG: That's what we thought.

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IV: And the little boarding.., the pension your mother that was running, it was closed..?

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AG: No my mother kept on running the pension until the last minute when we just had to walk out from it.

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We had to walk out, leave everything behind.

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We could take something with us what we could carry, nothing more.

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The choice was very hard for my mother mostly.

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And we didn't know where we were going and why.

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IV: Nobody told you before?

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AG: No, we were taken to the ghetto.

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But before we were taken to the ghetto, there were rumours that we could save us the possiblility of being deported,

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if we go to the municipality and swear loyalty to the country and go and work in the fields.

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So my mother ground.., rounded up some 30, 33 friends who were ready to do this

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and we went to the municipality and we swore loyalty and we were send to Muhi Puszta,

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that was the place where we had to work in the fields.

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And nobody exactly knew for how to work in the fields,

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but we had guards around and we had long, long hours and we did it

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and we thought with this we can save our lifes maybe.

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{Breathing} But we didn't.

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They came to take us, they changed their minds or the rules

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or the laws and they took us back to Miskolc

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to the ghetto, that was we thought the worst possibility, in very small apartments they ah send five, six families,

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of, of course only one bathroom and one kitchen.

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It was terribly crowded and very un.., very, very uncomfortable.

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We had very little food, also water was scarce ah they didn't let us go out.

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We were fenced in.

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It was a very bad situation.

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IV: Ah, can you remember how many people have been living in this ghetto?

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AG: {Breathing} You know, all the Jews from Miskolc.

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IV: Yeah.

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AG: All the Jews, I can, I don't have a number.

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I, I have no idea.

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I knew only pro apartment how many families were in there.

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Nein, I couldn't tell you.

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IV: But so, was it a big ghetto or a small one?

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AG: It was a very big ghetto.

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It was a very big ghetto.

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Ah people were there much longer than us, because we were in the fields trying to work

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so we, they brought us back and then, whatever they say, meant {breathing} they had some other plans,

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we took, they took the whole ghetto to the brick factory and outskirts of ah Miskolc.

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And ah we were waiting there for trains they told us.

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We can't be ah anymore in our hometown, we can't even be in Hungary anymore,

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we have to be in concentration camps, we have to be deported.

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These abstract words didn't mean to us anything.

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We didn't understand the meaning, my sister and me.

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But my mother was with us, so at least we were together

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and after a couple of, I don't know, it was a week, two weeks, ah the trains came.

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IV: And all the time you've been waiting at the brick factory just waiting for trains to come?

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AG: For the, yes, yes.

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And disappointment was very big.

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It wasn't trains, they were boxing cars.

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They were wagons, cattle wagons.

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We couldn't believe it that we have to crawl up on these wagons,

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they were very high and they pushed us inside.

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And there was, there were only standing place

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until there was absolutely no more standing place, they closed the door on us.

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{Breathing} It was very hot, no air, there was a pail in of the corners.

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We had no, very little food, no water {breathing}, waited for a long time until they started

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and ah we had no idea where we were going, for how long ah took a long, long time.

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Took three, three and a half days.

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And we were in very bad condition when, from day to day it was getting worse and worse.

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Worse about it was that there were pregnant women,

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women with very small babies, very old people, very sick people.

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Ah, all sorts of conditions.

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There were people who were yelling, they didn't know how certain things can be possible.

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How, how human beings can be transported that way.

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There were women starting to cry, they never could stop, they never stopped the whole three days.

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There were of course babies crying who couldn't stop either.

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There was nothing to stop them with.

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Ah it was ah very, very desperate, fant.., a terrible situation.

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We thought that the ghettos were the worst, so that was the worst.

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IV: So and where the train ended up?

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AG: When we got to a certain station the train stopped and we had no idea where we were.

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The doors opened, we saw a lot of SS soldiers,

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we were supposed to get off those trains, was hard to get off.

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We were helped off partly, but not out of politeness,

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they had to, they wanted us to get down already.

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And they went back to see who was left in many other boxcars,

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or how you call them, cattle, cattle wagons?

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Many people died before they arrived.

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In, in, in the one I was, nobody.

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And then, men and women were separated, that was a very tearful,

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very, very emotional sight the way they clung

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to each other and they didn't want to be separated and they wanted to stay together.

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There was lots of ah yelling, shouting: "Los, los."

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And lots of ah, ah yelling, crying, hysterics faintings.

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It is impossible to describe it even, until they could seperate the two groups.

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And we didn't know where the men were taken.

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IV: What about the children?

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They also were, the little boys came with the men or they were seperated with..

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AG: No, no, they were, they were, they stayed with the women.

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Children stayed with the women.

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Nobody ever asked me this, I didn't think of it.

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And then, we were going to our, to a certain point.

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And my mother was very scared and very worried and she told us to keep on going the way the line is moving.

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And she is going to the front and see what's going on

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and of course from both sides there were ah SS with guns pointing at us and she risked,

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she risked this, her life I would say, but told she has to find out what's going on.

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She has to know what's the next step should be.

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And when she came back she told us never to mention family ties,

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because she saw that whenever someone told: "Let me go with my mother, let me go with my grandmother."

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Or with my daughter or sister.

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That was immediately, yeah, select ah I mean, separated.

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Then she saw that they asked ages, she heard under 16

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they were automatically send to the, to a certain side.

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She didn't know what was good, what was bad.

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The women with, whoever had a child with ah her, definitely went to the other side, we called it.

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Ah these babies naturally, pregnant women of course, ah old people also, sick people also, people who couldn't walk, also.

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So she observed that ah the able-bodied women might be sent to a working camp,

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she thought, and she came back and told us this.

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And then she told: "You can't say your age."

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We were 13, my, my sister and I was 14.

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She told: "You can't say, you have to say 18 and 19 at least."

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And she will say five years younger, if it came to it that they asked her.

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And then they ah asked all, they, they looked over also whether people were healthy and, and moving well.

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So she warned us how to behave in case we were asked.

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It went terribly quickly, left, right, left, right.

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There was not much to think about.

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And then she saw that we had scarfs with us

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and she told we should bind our scarfs on our head in a way that we should look older and it was like this {putting the scarf on}.

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My sister and me we both bind, bound our heads that way.

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And we don't know exactly what helped, but we were sent all the three of us to one side.

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IV: And then you stood there still beside the trains?

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AG: Not any more, not any more.

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We were sent to a building ah in a big, big hall and we sat on the cold stone for hours

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we were waiting we didn't know for what.

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And then they came and took our bags away,

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this bag we had to, we could take with us, ah my sister and me, we had a doll, watch,

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I had a new watch, I had a book that I read currently, I took a dress I remember

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and we had to put it down in one of the corners of this big hall.

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And grown-ups didn't have such not un.., unremarkable stuff.

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They had documents, money, jewels, pictures, they didn't want to part from the bags..

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They were hysterical, they were crying, they were begging, they were ah fainting.

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But they didn't let them.

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They told you: "Put it in that corner."

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Of course that we were ah, everything was on gun point.

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So, I don't know what my mother heard, but I imagined that she was also desperate

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and had to get, had to part with her bag.

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{Breathing} They were, everybody was in a very bad situation

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and every time we thought that is the worst, but it wasn't.

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After that we had to undress and that was the utmost humiliation.

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They told us to undress everything, to not to have on anything.

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Now ah besides the humiliation it was again the point that ah most of the women had sewn in their cloth

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and in their pockets, but they thought that if the bags get lost

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or it will be taken maybe, but they didn't think it will be,

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will have, they will have to think of something else.

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So they took some of the jewels, some of the money, documents, pictures, what ever they could think of,

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whatever was very, very important for them they sew it in the linings up the cloth

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or in the pockets and now they have to take it off.

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So it started all over again the beggings, the cryings, the faintings, the screamings.

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It's impossible to, to, to imagine what was going on.

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{Breathing} But we had no other way.

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And then we were standing there without anything on and then they came to shave all hairs of all from our body.

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That was, I can't tell what humiliation it meant.

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And after it more, they desinfected us with, they sprayed us with a disinfectant,

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so, we just, we just couldn't breath even, we couldn't even recognize each other

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without hair and, and ah without cloth and ah {breathing}..

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IV: Who did this work?

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Other inmates from this camps or soldiers or female soldiers?

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AG: Female soldiers, but men soldiers were, were present all the time, so it was getting worse even.

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I, I couldn't even look who, who, who it was.

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It was so unpleasant and so unbelievable.

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And then we were sent to the showers and then we didn't know

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that in the other barracks all those people who were sent to the other side,

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we had no idea that they had gas coming from the showers.

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We didn't know and we didn't find out for a long, long time.

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So after the showers we were ah led to another hall and we had to pass by a big pile of cloth

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and as we were passing by slowly everybody could took, everybody could take a dress and the shoe.

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Whether the shoe fits or not, it wasn't important and

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of course no underwear, no nothing, just one single dress.

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After this was done, we were sitting on the cold stone again for hours and waiting,

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we didn't know for what.

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And the way we looked and the way we felt, was anyhow, nothing was important anymore.

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And then we were given two grey blankets.

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Everything was grey in Auschwitz, the blankets, the barracks, the air, everything.

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And then we were sent to barracks that had three floors, three pritsches.

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IV: So, from (???)

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AG: Yes, yes. And there were six, seven women on one of them, on each one ah 

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And we had these two blankets with us, we could use it underneath or we could cover with it.

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And sometimes they got wet and we're standing still Zählappell was the way,

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that we spent our time in Auschwitz, we were standing outside in five lines,

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rows and they came to count us all the time,

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three, four times a day and when it was raining these blankets got wet.

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Or this only dress we had on got wet.

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We had to deal with it.

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And it was a very bad situation.

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IV: At this time did you know that you had been in Auschwitz or had you ever heard the name Auschwitz before?

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AG: I have never, never.

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So there we heard that we were in Birkenau in Auschwitz, I am not quite sure.

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And we didn't know what it meant.

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We didn't know it was a ah extermination camp.

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We had no idea and my mother spoke to all the grown-ups around her.

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They were mostly friends from Miskolc from our city.

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Not to let my sister and me know, what's going on.

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And whenever something bad was going on, did she, we were taken away,

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we shouldn't know and she was very scared of our, our a moods and, and ah knowledge,

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we shouldn't be involved in anything that's scary.

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And she succeeded, we never found out what happened until the liberation.

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In this she succeeded, so after ah two weeks I suppose there were selections daily,

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she was so scared of these selections, she knew that if one of us will be sent somewhere else

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ah we will not survive, that she was sure of it.

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And she did everything to keep us together.

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And she kept taking of my glasses to put them sideways in her shoe, to hide it.

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That I shouldn't look different like anybody else.

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And I should have my glasses.

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And then we were selected together and taken to the railway station and into the wagons again.

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And we were sent out of Auschwitz at last to Plaszow.

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We didn't know, we didn't know it was Plaszow, we didn't know what it meant,

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we didn't know what it was.

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Later Spielberg made a film there.

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IV: It's not so far.

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It's not so far from Auschwitz?

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AG: It was an hours train ride.

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IV: Yeah, yeah.

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AG: And it was much worse.

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It was better only in a way that there were no selections.

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So we didn't have to be, have this scare every single day to be separated.

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But it was ah camp of ah I could say a camp of torture,

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but what I didn't see ah I don't, I am not going to talk about it.

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I heard a lot of stories, later.

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My mother was careful we shouldn't hear it there.

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We did a very ah humiliating work.

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We had to take big rocks, carry them up the hill,

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next day we had to carry them back, back down.

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My sister was thirteen and out of frail she couldn't lift those rocks that they showed her to take

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and when she couldn't move it and pick it up she was very badly beaten.

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Nor my mother and me couldn't do anything, we couldn't say that we could help or something,

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because we were not suppose to say that, that we were family.

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So she had to deal with it.

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Ah I will not even talk what was going on in Plaszow with other people,

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things that I haven't seen and haven't experienced myself.

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We were working a lot in the sun.

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We were very s.., we looked very bad, we were sunburned and our skin was peeling and ah, ah

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we had pains and, and ah we were tired and the food was a little bit only better than in Auschwitz.

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And ah it was hard.

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IV: So you told that this work you had to do was totaly senseless?

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AG: Totally, totally senseless.

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IV: Also and other people, was there also work like in other camps to produce things

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like weapons or something in Plaszow or you didn't see, you didn't..

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AG: I didn't see.

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I know one more working place that we sometimes did it.

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We were sitting on the ground and hammering small stones into a small path that it should be straight.

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Ah there were many, many other working places that I don't personally know about

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and then we hoped that we are going to be liberated by the Russians as we heard some gun shots,

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we thought they are nearing.

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And we were big, ah hopeful, but they liquidated the camp and they did not.

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IV: You like to drink a little bit?

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AG: Ah thank you.

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They took the whole camp to the railway station into the wagons.

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And this time, my sister and me at the first time we were so desperate we couldn't stop crying.

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Because in Plaszow as bad as it was we knew, you know, sometimes you, it's very bad, but you it, it's known, it's familiar.

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And to go back again to the wagons and start this travel, we didn't know where,

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where to and my mother kept on telling:

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"You were in Auschwitz, it was the worst.

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You were in Plaszow, it was, not, not much better, but it was also bad,

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you can be taken only to a better place."

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So, she kept on telling us the whole hour and then the train stopped and when they opened the door

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we just couldn't believe our eyes, we were back in Auschwitz.

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So this time my mother had really nothing to say anymore.

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She only saw one officer alone, selecting, that's how I remember it.

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The information is, that it was Mengele.

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We didn't know of course that he was a doctor.

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We didn't know the experiments, we didn't know what he was doing there,

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but we saw that he was selecting alone.

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And then my mother really got scared, she told,

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she will go first, sister will be next and I will be the third.

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And we should try to follow her wherever she was sent, she took this risk,

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because she didn't think that we can survive without her.

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Or we should say or try to get to a working camp and say that it's a working camp, in case it's possible.

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So she kept on telling this to us and ah, because I, my face and my whole skin was peeling all the time

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so that's why she thought that I should be the last

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and she trusted me that I'll go where she was sent to.

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So she went in front of him, in front of Mengele and she was sent right and so was my sister.

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And I was sent to the left.

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Then I told him:

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"No, please, please, let me go to that side."

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He says: "Why, what is on that side?"

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I told: "The working camp."

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Of course I didn't say that it was my mother or sister.

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Ah she really prepared us well and he told: "You don't,

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what, what you want to do in a working camp?

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You don't look to me who can still work."

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But then he realized that we were talking German.

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And then he asked: "How do you speak German that well?"

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And somehow something changed and he told: "Ok, go there."

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IV: He was talking in German to you?

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AG: And I was talking in German.

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IV: Yeah, but he, when he asked?

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AG: Yes, yes, he was talking in German, I was answering in German.

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And ah he was impressed enough to let me go wherever I asked to go.

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So, I was safe, but my mother from far, when she saw, what was going on, she was sure, she lost me.

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And she fainted and she didn't ah come to herself yet, when I arrived even to, to that side.

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So at least we were again together.

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And then came another humiliation, we were tattooed on our left arm,

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the letter A, Auschwitz, and a long number.

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All the three of us.

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And then I fainted.

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Maybe also from the shock of almost being sent somewhere else, I didn't know what it meant.

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I didn't know that it was ah the crematorium, I didn't know these things.

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But to be separated from the family I knew that it, I won't make it.

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And then the pain after tattooing, so I fainted.

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IV: So that was the first time, you got tattooed in all this?

367
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AG: Yes, but it was the second time in Auschwitz.

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We didn't get in the, at the first time.

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IV: And then you've been brought to barracks?

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AG: Yes, then we were brought to barracks and we had an incident.

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Ah, my mother had some wounds, someth.., something on her shoulders,

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because someone stood on her shoulder to look out the window where we were taken to

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and they were afraid that it might be contagious,

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so she was sent to a quarantine barrack and we were sent to a different one.

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And she was scared of course of the selections that we were,

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this time we can be separated easily and she will not be able to join us or vice versa.

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So she agreed with a girl whose sister was in our barrack to ex.., to get exchanged.

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And when the evening came and the time came to, to make the change, the girl got scared and she stayed.

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And my mother came and that meant that in our barrack there was one more

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and when the Zählappell was done in the evening and they saw that there is one more

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and they wanted to find out who it was.

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And they threatened us that it, when they found out that it was missing from the quarantine barrack

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of course we were only numbers, there were no names,

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they ah threatened us that we are going to die, we are going to be sick,

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we are going to be this and the people were told, tell who it was who joined you.

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Now my mother was highly respected for one reason.

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Ah the hunger was really very bad and many mothers or daughters stole from each other at night

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the piece of bread that they put aside and when it was found out of course there were beatings and shoutings

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and yellings and cryings and ah almost everybody did it.

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That was ah such a situation where you were not human even anymore sometimes.

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And they respected my Mum, because she did not steel from us, on the contrary,

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she came and told us sometimes to my sister and me that:

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"Look, I had my portion already and here have another, another slice or ah half a slice"

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and they couldn't understand how she could do it.

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And they knew that she joined us, so nobody, nobody was ready to tell it.

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And then they came this another SSs who told us, that if you don't tell it the whole barrack will be shot.

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And still nobody told it.

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And we stood till five o' clock in the morning Zählappell,

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outside and we don't know and we never found out what was the reason,

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but we were sent back to the barracks and we were not shot.

401
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So that was one of the incidents.

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The other, other let's say it was pleasant, somehow, the other incident,

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when one of ah we found out that one of the young women from Miskolc

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was an opera singer and we asked her to sing to us.

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And ah it was hard to convince her, because

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ah at the selections her mother was sent to the other side,

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when we came back from Plaszow and she was desperate and her si..,

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she was also, also two girls with their mother,

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and her sister was with her, but ah she was in no mood to sing of course, but she did it.

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And ah we applauded her so much and loved her so much for it that she did it

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every couple of days and that lifted our spirits really, really for the time being.

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IV: Can you remember what kind of songs, or?

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AG: Traviata.

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I remember most opera arias, that are very well known,

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but the Traviata was very, very impressive for us.

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Also because of those words and so this, this really meant a lot.

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And then someone found out an old accquaintance of my mother was working in the kitchen

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and she found out, she was afraid to ask whether we are with her, my sister and me,

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and I and she sent us raw cabbage, every now and then,

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when she could find us and might have been a lifesaver in a way

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until we were selected again and sent to the station again.

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IV: Can you remember how many days you have been in this situation?

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AG: Weeks, weeks.

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IV: Weeks, weeks, and so after this ah first ah thing you mentioned, wou.., ah

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where ah nobody told ah the guards that your mother is the one,

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who, who came back so and they ah told you:

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"We are gonna shoot you, all."

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Did somebody change?

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So in, in your imagination what could happen?

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Or, or are they, are treating the people?

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CM: Ah, sie müsste mal das Papier aus der Hand nehmen, weil das {???}

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IV: Das krazt? Das Tempo Taschentuch?

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CM:  Ja, sie tut die ganze Zeit so mitm Tempo machen und direkt vorm Mikrofon.

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IV: Ah, excuse me, do you need the ah, ah,

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AG: Ah, ok.

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IV: It makes some noice sometimes.

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AG: I didn't know, I didn't know, oh good you just say so.

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IV: But he can, can hear it, with the ear phones and..

439
00:38:38.333 --> 00:38:39.999
AG: Ok, sorry.

440
00:38:40.000 --> 00:38:42.866
IV: Make a noise, we cannot hear.

441
00:38:42.867 --> 00:38:45.332
CM: What's that? {Cell phone ringing} 

442
00:38:45.333 --> 00:38:49.299
IV: I forgot to turn off my ..

443
00:38:49.300 --> 00:38:59.999
AG: You know, we were in such an inhuman situation, position, ah desperate, ah starving,

444
00:39:00.000 --> 00:39:06.399
we were so thirsty in most of the time, ah even sleep deprived ah,

445
00:39:06.400 --> 00:39:12.666
we were not quite, we were not ourselves at all, so, who was thinking?

446
00:39:12.667 --> 00:39:14.999
Look, if someone would have told, who it was,

447
00:39:15.000 --> 00:39:18.799
well we would have accept it, what could we do?

448
00:39:18.800 --> 00:39:21.832
But we knew somehow that nobody will tell.

449
00:39:21.833 --> 00:39:23.666
Somehow we knew.

450
00:39:23.667 --> 00:39:30.232
And my mother wasn't scared eigther, I mean it was a, it was a situation where you, you,

451
00:39:30.233 --> 00:39:35.266
ah you couldn't even talk, we were standing, standing in this Appellplatz for, for so many hours.

452
00:39:35.267 --> 00:39:38.066
All, all our concern was that we can't stand even anymore,

453
00:39:38.067 --> 00:39:40.666
when we can, we have to drink something, we have to eat something,

454
00:39:40.667 --> 00:39:44.999
we, we were not thinking anymore.

455
00:39:45.000 --> 00:39:49.332
IV: So we're now, we came to the time you got selected again or?

456
00:39:49.333 --> 00:39:50.332
AG: Yes.

457
00:39:50.333 --> 00:39:51.699
IV: Maybe you can go on?

458
00:39:51.700 --> 00:40:03.299
AG: And we were s.., ah lucky again, three of us together, but that was already September,

459
00:40:03.300 --> 00:40:11.099
and we were stands to the r.., we were sent to the railway station,

460
00:40:11.100 --> 00:40:14.999
that's the forth time I was in this railway station

461
00:40:15.000 --> 00:40:23.199
and back into the wagons and ah the wagons started and we didn't know again where to.

462
00:40:23.200 --> 00:40:28.466
And ah my mother again kept on consoling us, that it can't be worse,

463
00:40:28.467 --> 00:40:33.032
and this won't be worse and we should cheer up and

464
00:40:33.033 --> 00:40:39.766
think positively and whatever they say at these days, but it was terribly cold.

465
00:40:39.767 --> 00:40:46.666
And it wasn't winter yet, but it was very cold those nights and we with the

466
00:40:46.667 --> 00:40:51.799
little cloth we had on and this time we didn't have any blankets even.

467
00:40:51.800 --> 00:41:00.932
And we had no shoes proper, proper shoes and we had no proper clothing and no food no drink ah

468
00:41:00.933 --> 00:41:13.066
during this ah trip and we were sent to Rochlitz, to Germany and

469
00:41:13.067 --> 00:41:19.599
when they opened ah doors, at least we didn't see a camp.

470
00:41:19.600 --> 00:41:29.432
Ah Rochlitz was a very small camp and we were chosen, selected actually 200 women,

471
00:41:29.433 --> 00:41:35.832
20 Polish and 180 Hungarians.

472
00:41:35.833 --> 00:41:41.499
And we were brought to a barrack and they told us,

473
00:41:41.500 --> 00:41:48.266
we are going to be taught how to make small spare parts, screws, for aeroplanes.

474
00:41:48.267 --> 00:41:52.466
But it's not the factory where we are going to work, it's the school actually

475
00:41:52.467 --> 00:41:57.399
where we are going to be taught how to do it.

476
00:41:57.400 --> 00:42:06.399
So in a way we felt good, that we are humans that we are not just a number, we are not cattles,

477
00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:12.466
we are treated better, but the discipline was very, very harsh.

478
00:42:12.467 --> 00:42:17.766
Food was a little bit better and the sleeping quarters were of course much better,

479
00:42:17.767 --> 00:42:21.032
but it was, all the time we were scared,

480
00:42:21.033 --> 00:42:26.299
all the time, it was very hard discipline and threats and ah,

481
00:42:26.300 --> 00:42:33.799
and there were women guards, SS guards who were in many ways worse

482
00:42:33.800 --> 00:42:38.332
and we were there a couple of weeks.

483
00:42:38.333 --> 00:42:41.632
IV: And how many hours a day you had to work?

484
00:42:41.633 --> 00:42:42.066
So or was it just to learn you..

485
00:42:42.067 --> 00:42:49.399
AG: It wasn't bad, it was just to teach us, it wasn't so bad

486
00:42:49.400 --> 00:42:56.666
and ah what was bad was the cold and ah the whole situation of course.

487
00:42:56.667 --> 00:43:01.699
My sister had suffered very much, because she saw in September,

488
00:43:01.700 --> 00:43:05.632
it was September that the school children, she saw school children from,

489
00:43:05.633 --> 00:43:12.366
we were taken to another location that I can't recall where to

490
00:43:12.367 --> 00:43:15.832
and she saw school children with bags and she broke and

491
00:43:15.833 --> 00:43:20.099
she cried for two days that she will never go to school anymore.

492
00:43:20.100 --> 00:43:22.932
I couldn't care less.

493
00:43:22.933 --> 00:43:32.299
And that was the end of September when we were sent to,

494
00:43:32.300 --> 00:43:39.199
I can't remember by train, by bus, I had no idea how we got to Stuttgart.

495
00:43:39.200 --> 00:43:50.499
Near Stuttgart to Calw into the aeroplane factory, spare parts factory.

496
00:43:50.500 --> 00:43:54.266
And there it was very bad.

497
00:43:54.267 --> 00:44:00.466
They, people told us, our guards, that we are not supposed go near, go near the windows.

498
00:44:00.467 --> 00:44:09.266
We had no ah fresh air for weeks, no daylight.

499
00:44:09.267 --> 00:44:12.466
We were working from seven in the evening till seven in the morning

500
00:44:12.467 --> 00:44:20.966
near monotonous machines that, that have put you to sleep even without being night.

501
00:44:20.967 --> 00:44:26.932
And it was very hard to stay awake and do our job.

502
00:44:26.933 --> 00:44:34.799
One girl lost her balance, because she fell asleep and she fell into the machine.

503
00:44:34.800 --> 00:44:40.132
She was very badly hurt, she didn't die, she survived it.

504
00:44:40.133 --> 00:44:50.066
One woman got Typhus, we thought that we are all going to get it, somehow I don't know, we didn't, she died.

505
00:44:50.067 --> 00:44:58.899
Ah my, one day my mother fainted, because her stone exploded,

506
00:44:58.900 --> 00:45:01.966
it was a filing stone, a big filing stone.

507
00:45:01.967 --> 00:45:05.732
I was working on a revolver Drehbank.

508
00:45:05.733 --> 00:45:12.766
I got the piece of Aluminium and the plans and I had to make a screw out of it and I did.

509
00:45:12.767 --> 00:45:15.666
And when it was too big, it went to her departement

510
00:45:15.667 --> 00:45:22.232
where they filed it the ac.., the necessary size

511
00:45:22.233 --> 00:45:24.766
and my sister was in the controlling departement

512
00:45:24.767 --> 00:45:28.399
where they checked whether the size was right.

513
00:45:28.400 --> 00:45:36.532
So she filed ah these little screws and the stone exploded, she fainted

514
00:45:36.533 --> 00:45:39.999
and they explained her that the stone is very, not only expensive,

515
00:45:40.000 --> 00:45:48.166
but very rare and they, it will take a long time until they can have another one, until it comes in

516
00:45:48.167 --> 00:45:53.432
the screws will stay in the cartons near the doors.

517
00:45:53.433 --> 00:45:55.932
They can't do, they can't send them out.

518
00:45:55.933 --> 00:46:02.132
And then she realized that maybe this was a good idea, she could make some mini sabotage

519
00:46:02.133 --> 00:46:07.899
and keep those screws from arriving to the planes.

520
00:46:07.900 --> 00:46:09.999
And so she did it many times.

521
00:46:10.000 --> 00:46:16.499
The stone exploded, she fainted and nobody found out, of course we kids, we didn't know.

522
00:46:16.500 --> 00:46:22.132
We had no idea that it was real, we thought really that it ah happened again,

523
00:46:22.133 --> 00:46:25.632
so the maximum what could have happened, they thought she was stupid.

524
00:46:25.633 --> 00:46:32.999
Nobody thought that she is doing it on purpose {breathing}.

525
00:46:33.000 --> 00:46:44.366
Ah one day {clearing the throat} they came to tell us that this period is also done, finished, we have to leave.

526
00:46:44.367 --> 00:46:52.366
So we thought, ok, we are going to get into the wagons again and god knows were, but we have to leave.

527
00:46:52.367 --> 00:46:59.066
But there were no wagons, we had to walk.

528
00:46:59.067 --> 00:47:08.366
Ah, it was unimaginable, that was already January, February, it was the end of February,

529
00:47:08.367 --> 00:47:14.499
the cold was impossible and we were supposed to walk only at night.

530
00:47:14.500 --> 00:47:16.666
IV: There was snow?

531
00:47:16.667 --> 00:47:19.866
AG: I don't remember snow.

532
00:47:19.867 --> 00:47:23.132
That was later than February, it was March already.

533
00:47:23.133 --> 00:47:27.499
I have, I can't remember.

534
00:47:27.500 --> 00:47:31.632
You know there was this 50-year silence, I never mentioned,

535
00:47:31.633 --> 00:47:35.566
where we tried everything in our power to forget what happened

536
00:47:35.567 --> 00:47:41.832
and nobody wanted to talk about it and we really tried hard to forget.

537
00:47:41.833 --> 00:47:50.832
And my mother and sister mostly they didn't ah want to talk about it even, they didn't even, after I

538
00:47:50.833 --> 00:47:54.666
came up with a question or wanted to know really something, they told:

539
00:47:54.667 --> 00:47:59.232
"You survived, you just don't mention it anymore."

540
00:47:59.233 --> 00:48:05.232
So, many things I really can't remember, couldn't remember

541
00:48:05.233 --> 00:48:15.332
and anyhow we had to leave and it was the start of the death march the way it was called.

542
00:48:15.333 --> 00:48:23.199
I can't describe what it was ah really we, we had no proper clothing of course, we had no proper shoes,

543
00:48:23.200 --> 00:48:32.499
we had no hats, gloves, scarfs, underwear, it was undescribable, food, drinks I'm not even mentioning anymore.

544
00:48:32.500 --> 00:48:41.666
{Breathing} We, I think, we took one blanket, that was not helpful at all.

545
00:48:41.667 --> 00:48:44.099
And they wanted us to walk only at night.

546
00:48:44.100 --> 00:48:52.432
They didn't want the people, the villagers to see us and to ask questions, who we are.

547
00:48:52.433 --> 00:48:54.232
IV: And during day time?

548
00:48:54.233 --> 00:48:56.632
You have been sleeping somewhere or?

549
00:48:56.633 --> 00:48:58.399
AG: They found us barns.

550
00:48:58.400 --> 00:48:59.999
IV: Yeah.

551
00:49:00.000 --> 00:49:04.999
AG: And they found us, we, we had to find ourselves, they tried to find us something to eat.

552
00:49:05.000 --> 00:49:08.332
Sometimes it was milk, sometimes it was bread.

553
00:49:08.333 --> 00:49:18.099
We found us, we found ourselves the ah raw potatos, raw cabbage and we lived on it for a long time.

554
00:49:18.100 --> 00:49:26.266
And ah I don't know, what they told to the villagers, who we were, what we were.

555
00:49:26.267 --> 00:49:31.799
Sometimes they brought us something, most of the time no

556
00:49:31.800 --> 00:49:36.332
and ah it took a long, long time this walk.

557
00:49:36.333 --> 00:49:37.999
It was four hundred kilometers.

558
00:49:38.000 --> 00:49:48.366
We were supposed to get to either Mauthausen or Dachau and we got till Garmisch-Partenkirchen,

559
00:49:48.367 --> 00:49:53.432
but before we got to Garmisch-Partenkirchen I just really couldn't walk anymore

560
00:49:53.433 --> 00:49:55.766
and one of the guards was helping me and told me

561
00:49:55.767 --> 00:49:59.699
that we have to get to a station and then we can continue by train.

562
00:49:59.700 --> 00:50:08.432
Now, some other people who understood German told us in Hungarian, that this is not true,

563
00:50:08.433 --> 00:50:17.899
they are taking us to a railway station where they are waiting for trains with guns and the order to execute us.

564
00:50:17.900 --> 00:50:20.666
"So just don't hurry so much", they told us.

565
00:50:20.667 --> 00:50:23.166
Well, I couldn't hurry anyhow, I just sat down, I told:

566
00:50:23.167 --> 00:50:26.966
"I don't care, I don't, I just can't walk anymore."

567
00:50:26.967 --> 00:50:32.766
And I was the, the last one in the line.

568
00:50:32.767 --> 00:50:36.732
And we didn't know what to believe, but we didn't even care anymore,

569
00:50:36.733 --> 00:50:42.099
you know, we were so cold and so hungry and this time the tiredness were added to it.

570
00:50:42.100 --> 00:50:51.199
That, we just, the, the despair was, was undescribable so we just couldn't cope anymore.

571
00:50:51.200 --> 00:50:59.199
But they, we were, we were on gun point and we heared it later,

572
00:50:59.200 --> 00:51:04.999
not then, we didn't know that many death marches ended with ah lots of ah casualties,

573
00:51:05.000 --> 00:51:09.899
because those who couldn't continue walking they were shot and left on the roadside.

574
00:51:09.900 --> 00:51:15.266
We didn't know it and even if we had known, I don't think we would have cared anymore.

575
00:51:15.267 --> 00:51:20.999
So we got to the railway station somehow and the trains left.

576
00:51:21.000 --> 00:51:24.232
So there was, there were no guns to execute us,

577
00:51:24.233 --> 00:51:27.999
what we didn't know, we found out after a couple of days.

578
00:51:28.000 --> 00:51:33.866
And ah, there were white envelopes given to the officers,

579
00:51:33.867 --> 00:51:37.099
not to the soldiers, that's what we saw from far

580
00:51:37.100 --> 00:51:43.799
and they contained ah false papers to go to Switzerland for the officers.

581
00:51:43.800 --> 00:51:47.766
All this we found out a couple of days later.

582
00:51:47.767 --> 00:51:57.432
And we were sent back to the forrest, there were creeks in those forrests

583
00:51:57.433 --> 00:52:02.966
with small stones and my foot was bleeding and I was hurting

584
00:52:02.967 --> 00:52:12.832
and I really didn't care anymore and it was the worst, worst day of my whole ah year, let's put it that way.

585
00:52:12.833 --> 00:52:17.599
And I just said: "No more, that's it, I really, really don't care anymore."

586
00:52:17.600 --> 00:52:22.899
And then somebody told: "Look around there are no guards around us."

587
00:52:22.900 --> 00:52:33.432
And then ah the twenty Polish people were actually the Kapos and the Lagerälteste during the whole period

588
00:52:33.433 --> 00:52:41.299
so the Lagerälteste called us to be around her

589
00:52:41.300 --> 00:52:47.132
and she let us know that: "From today the 28th of April you are free."

590
00:52:47.133 --> 00:52:54.632
So, yeah, it was impossible to understand even the, the

591
00:52:54.633 --> 00:53:00.299
word and to imagine that it might be true.

592
00:53:00.300 --> 00:53:06.666
And ah you know the worst day turned out to be the best

593
00:53:06.667 --> 00:53:10.632
and the happiest and something that we never imagined even.

594
00:53:10.633 --> 00:53:14.766
I never thought I will be ever free.

595
00:53:14.767 --> 00:53:20.999
And ah actually that was the liberation, no, that was not the liberation.

596
00:53:21.000 --> 00:53:22.799
I mean they told us, we are free

597
00:53:22.800 --> 00:53:27.866
and then we were hundred and eighty Hungarians with hundred and eighty opinions

598
00:53:27.867 --> 00:53:32.766
where we were, what to do, where to go, just didn't know what to do.

599
00:53:32.767 --> 00:53:40.666
We were too tired and too worn out to think even.

600
00:53:40.667 --> 00:53:52.399
{Breathing} And then somehow some 30, 35 women where of one opinion with my mother and we started out,

601
00:53:52.400 --> 00:54:02.132
I don't know South, West at a certain direction and we heard soldiers from far

602
00:54:02.133 --> 00:54:05.899
and we get scared again, might be Germans, Russians.

603
00:54:05.900 --> 00:54:15.332
We had no idea, we found a stick, we, we bound some underwear on it, lifted it that it's, we are peaceful,

604
00:54:15.333 --> 00:54:21.699
was supposed to be white and at least the soldiers saw that

605
00:54:21.700 --> 00:54:25.666
we are peaceful and they sent me to talk to them

606
00:54:25.667 --> 00:54:35.899
because of my English knowledge and they told me they have never in their lifes seen so many ugly, dirty, bold,

607
00:54:35.900 --> 00:54:40.099
thin I don't know what else women in their lifes.

608
00:54:40.100 --> 00:54:45.666
So, we told them, if they were liberating a camp they would have seen much worse.

609
00:54:45.667 --> 00:54:47.632
As it was really true.

610
00:54:47.633 --> 00:54:48.932
IV: And those were the Americans?

611
00:54:48.933 --> 00:54:52.532
AG: And the.., those were the first Americans in my life I have seen.

612
00:54:52.533 --> 00:54:55.399
And I have met and I never found,

613
00:54:55.400 --> 00:55:02.099
who, never found them, those liberating veterans {breathing}.

614
00:55:02.100 --> 00:55:04.066
IV: You've been looking for them, later?

615
00:55:04.067 --> 00:55:06.999
AG: A lot, a lot, the Museum where I work also.

616
00:55:07.000 --> 00:55:11.799
IV: Yeah, so and then, what happened?

617
00:55:11.800 --> 00:55:18.099
So you are in a foreign country with nothing, ah with people you don't know,

618
00:55:18.100 --> 00:55:21.999
how would they react when you show up, so..

619
00:55:22.000 --> 00:55:26.899
AG: So they were the nicest people we have ever met.

620
00:55:26.900 --> 00:55:34.966
They took us to their headquarters, they let us rest of course, they will fed us,

621
00:55:34.967 --> 00:55:42.366
they brought doctors, nurses, whatever was necessary, we were in very bad state.

622
00:55:42.367 --> 00:55:48.066
They ah really looked after us, but it couldn't have been forever.

623
00:55:48.067 --> 00:55:50.966
They, the, they went shopping one day,

624
00:55:50.967 --> 00:55:55.732
they told everybody can ask for something.

625
00:55:55.733 --> 00:56:00.132
They will bring us whatever we were dreaming of the whole year.

626
00:56:00.133 --> 00:56:07.299
Some people asked for a piece of cake, someone asked for Schnitzel, someone asked for chocolate,

627
00:56:07.300 --> 00:56:14.966
someone asked for a jacket, because of the cold all the time and I asked for lipstick

628
00:56:14.967 --> 00:56:22.399
and they brought whatever we asked for they give it, was ah, they were a very nice few weeks,

629
00:56:22.400 --> 00:56:24.099
the way they looked after us.

630
00:56:24.100 --> 00:56:28.666
But they had to give us up, they had to got to, to the URO,

631
00:56:28.667 --> 00:56:34.199
United Restitutions Offices, they took us to Innsbruck

632
00:56:34.200 --> 00:56:38.466
and we stayed there for eight months, my, we couldn't decide what to do.

633
00:56:38.467 --> 00:56:41.299
I didn't want to go back to Hungary.

634
00:56:41.300 --> 00:56:51.099
When my mother wanted to go and see who stayed alive, so we went back eventually.

635
00:56:51.100 --> 00:56:55.999
IV: Let's have another short break, a little bit of water {breathing}.

636
00:56:56.000 --> 00:56:58.999
Or maybe Hungaria, you learned German there?

637
00:56:59.000 --> 00:56:59.999
AG: This is off record, right?

638
00:57:00.000 --> 00:57:03.666
IV: This is off, yeah, yeah.

639
00:57:03.667 --> 00:57:09.466
AG: I could tell this actually, ah I can't cope with the realitiy

640
00:57:09.467 --> 00:57:13.832
as it really was, so that's not exactly as it was.

641
00:57:13.833 --> 00:57:19.532
What I can't cope is the harder, harder parts of it.

642
00:57:19.533 --> 00:57:24.399
This can be told actually, I mean, not off record.

643
00:57:24.400 --> 00:57:25.099
IV: Yeah, yeah.

644
00:57:25.100 --> 00:57:27.099
AG: At the end I will tell it.

645
00:57:27.100 --> 00:57:29.766
So tell me when you start, when you..

646
00:57:29.767 --> 00:57:31.199
IV: Yeah.

647
00:57:31.200 --> 00:57:38.232
AG: Ok, so from, from Innsbruck ah we went back eventually to

648
00:57:38.233 --> 00:57:43.499
Hungary and my mother reopened the pension

649
00:57:43.500 --> 00:57:52.632
although it was ah in a bad condition that it was not un.., not furnished the, the way, we left it.

650
00:57:52.633 --> 00:57:56.866
So she went to the municipality and asked for help,

651
00:57:56.867 --> 00:58:04.732
they sent with her people and she went to the neighbours and asked back for her curtains,

652
00:58:04.733 --> 00:58:11.532
beds, carpets, whatever she found that they took {breathing}

653
00:58:11.533 --> 00:58:15.532
and she refurnished it and restarted it.

654
00:58:15.533 --> 00:58:22.999
And I went to school for one day, because the class mates told me, they did never thought,

655
00:58:23.000 --> 00:58:25.666
they never thought that they will see me again

656
00:58:25.667 --> 00:58:28.266
and the other one asked: "Why did you come back?"

657
00:58:28.267 --> 00:58:31.332
So the antisemitism wasn't done.

658
00:58:31.333 --> 00:58:39.466
Wait, so I went to the principal and told him: "I can't sit here, I can't study here."

659
00:58:39.467 --> 00:58:45.366
But I was studying here all my, all the years, before it was a protestant Gymnasium.

660
00:58:45.367 --> 00:58:48.266
Ah it was the best in the vicinity.

661
00:58:48.267 --> 00:58:53.766
So, he came to the conclusion that he will give me the material and I will study at home

662
00:58:53.767 --> 00:58:58.866
and come for the exams and I will finish my studies that way.

663
00:58:58.867 --> 00:59:04.499
So while I studied at home, I tought English and German to Hungarians

664
00:59:04.500 --> 00:59:08.066
who wanted to flee, many of them wanted to flee,

665
00:59:08.067 --> 00:59:12.766
so they took private lessons that I provided.

666
00:59:12.767 --> 00:59:21.799
And ah when the communism started to started in Hungary, I told my mother that I have to leave

667
00:59:21.800 --> 00:59:29.899
and she couldn't leave of course, but ah it was ah known, that if kids leave

668
00:59:29.900 --> 00:59:34.699
their parents come after them or if grown ups leave, their kids can come,

669
00:59:34.700 --> 00:59:37.566
there will be a lot to go, they will get the pass.

670
00:59:37.567 --> 00:59:46.166
And ah they were looking for soldiers 18, 19 years old, young Jewish people

671
00:59:46.167 --> 00:59:52.632
who were ready to go to Palestine and fight for Isra.., for become Israel.

672
00:59:52.633 --> 01:00:01.832
So, my mother did refuse to sign this petition actually and I ran af..,

673
01:00:01.833 --> 01:00:07.532
went after this ah person who brought the list and signed my mother's name

674
01:00:07.533 --> 01:00:12.666
and so my passport was sent to me in a couple of weeks

675
01:00:12.667 --> 01:00:15.299
and my sister and me where the last once to leave Hungary,

676
01:00:15.300 --> 01:00:23.999
I mean, last ones means, there were no more groups, only individual ah, ah passports,

677
01:00:24.000 --> 01:00:31.199
so we left and ah they didn't let us in to Palestine before the war ended,

678
01:00:31.200 --> 01:00:33.666
so we were in Marseille waiting

679
01:00:33.667 --> 01:00:37.632
and when we came to Israel it was already ok.

680
01:00:37.633 --> 01:00:43.832
No, it was a hard beginning, because of, I speak already three languages and I come to a place

681
01:00:43.833 --> 01:00:48.632
where they don't want any of these languages, they told me: "Please, talk Hebrew."

682
01:00:48.633 --> 01:00:51.832
So it wasn't that easy.

683
01:00:51.833 --> 01:00:55.866
And my mother got married immediately after we left

684
01:00:55.867 --> 01:00:59.666
and in '56 after the revolution they lef.., they sh..,

685
01:00:59.667 --> 01:01:05.366
she got her passport also and her husband's and they came to Israel to a Kibbutz,

686
01:01:05.367 --> 01:01:13.199
where my sister was and ah my mother was 97 years old when she died

687
01:01:13.200 --> 01:01:16.566
and my step dad was 79.

688
01:01:16.567 --> 01:01:23.166
And they had quite a nice life, nice, old age actually

689
01:01:23.167 --> 01:01:33.632
and my mother had 17 great-grandchildren and 13 grandchildren.

690
01:01:33.633 --> 01:01:40.766
And my sister is still in the Kibbutz also with,

691
01:01:40.767 --> 01:01:49.199
only one of the children is in the Kibbutz, the rest is ah around, somewhere else.

692
01:01:49.200 --> 01:01:54.899
IV: And when, why did you decide to leave Israel and go to the US?

693
01:01:54.900 --> 01:02:02.466
AG: My daughter left Israel ah went to, all my children were in the army,

694
01:02:02.467 --> 01:02:08.766
so they were after they served the arms, serving the army, also my son-in-law,

695
01:02:08.767 --> 01:02:17.499
they wanted to go to England for a while and for a while meant thirteen years

696
01:02:17.500 --> 01:02:23.966
and then they got a job offer in the States and they went to the States.

697
01:02:23.967 --> 01:02:30.199
And ten years ago, my daughter invited me to stay with them and to live with them,

698
01:02:30.200 --> 01:02:35.932
so I left Israel and came for the States ten years ago.

699
01:02:35.933 --> 01:02:42.832
And my son and her fams.., families stayed in Israel.

700
01:02:42.833 --> 01:02:51.799
Both children had a boy and a girl and the, I have four great-grandchildren,

701
01:02:51.800 --> 01:02:59.999
everyone of them has two and that's it.

702
01:03:00.000 --> 01:03:04.999
IV: So, ah, I don't have anymore questions, so you are released.

703
01:03:05.000 --> 01:03:07.499
But maybe is there anything you want to say?

704
01:03:07.500 --> 01:03:12.832
Sometim.., sometimes people they have a message or something, ah

705
01:03:12.833 --> 01:03:19.799
what they want to say to me, to us, to the people..

706
01:03:19.800 --> 01:03:26.966
AG: {Breathing} One message, one last message, a fact is that it's not exactly the way it happened,

707
01:03:26.967 --> 01:03:35.499
but because I am talking very much about it, I can't cope with more than I can tell,

708
01:03:35.500 --> 01:03:38.166
the more than what I told.

709
01:03:38.167 --> 01:03:48.499
Ah there were, ah, I, I had some hard times more than with my mother to tried to shield us,

710
01:03:48.500 --> 01:03:54.166
not at, not always she succeded, but there are things that I am really unable to talk about.

711
01:03:54.167 --> 01:04:01.199
I came to the conclusion that, if I don't have to, I can keep on doing what I am doing.

712
01:04:01.200 --> 01:04:08.599
What I am doing is, ah, volunteering in the Holocaust Museum in Washington,

713
01:04:08.600 --> 01:04:14.466
translating and speaking to schools,

714
01:04:14.467 --> 01:04:21.366
to colleges, to Universities, not only in Washington, they send me to different states

715
01:04:21.367 --> 01:04:27.699
and I couldn't cope with more than what I am telling.

716
01:04:27.700 --> 01:04:38.499
The other thing is, if they ask me, if it is a school, what do I leave with the kids is

717
01:04:38.500 --> 01:04:49.966
first of all the discipline to listen and listen and then do whatever the teachers or parents think they have to do

718
01:04:49.967 --> 01:04:54.799
and languages, not to stay with one language.

719
01:04:54.800 --> 01:05:05.832
To keep on learning languages and ah that I hope that I'll be able to continue doing what I do.

720
01:05:05.833 --> 01:05:11.732
They have also a writing workshop in the Museum to make us write,

721
01:05:11.733 --> 01:05:22.399
not our story, not from the first day till the last, to write episodes about some parts of what happened.

722
01:05:22.400 --> 01:05:31.999
So I do this also very often and four stories were published already through the Museum.

723
01:05:32.000 --> 01:05:40.266
And I find this gathering of remembrance what is going on in Flossenbürg

724
01:05:40.267 --> 01:05:47.699
that I never dreamt of, never knew that, never thought that it's possible to do I find it beautiful thing,

725
01:05:47.700 --> 01:05:52.932
to have all these people here and make them feel so good and important

726
01:05:52.933 --> 01:06:03.999
and give back our self-respect and, and everything about it.

727
01:06:04.000 --> 01:06:06.666
IV: Thank you for doing this work.

728
01:06:06.667 --> 01:06:09.666
AG: Thank you for inviting me {laughing}.

729
01:06:09.667 --> 01:06:15.367
IV: Ok. Camera out.